Knucklebuster

So! As of 3:26 AM Pacific Standard Time, the first Knucklebuster demo track has been completed. I might upload at at some point, because I'm extremely proud of it. Its just kickass heavy metal, which is something I've always wanted to make. Anyway, more demo tracks to be written/recorded soon, as this thing slowly pieces itself together. But goodnight to you, world! And may metal fucking kick ass forever and ever.

Knucklebuster:

Nick Landreth - Guitar/Bass
Landon Martin - Drums/Guitar
Preston - Vocals

\m/

deadmau5's "Ghosts n' Stuff (ft. Rob Swire)"

the song of this day. Its simply put, the catchiest song I have ever heard. Best car song ever, its impossible not to dance to. deadmau5 has made quite a name for himself, going from nothing to being the most sought after producer/DJ/remix artist in the country in under a year. Props to him, he's good at it. Plus he wears awesome helmets live. Off the new album "For Lack Of A Better Name". Check it out: myspace.com/deadmau5.

It's been so long
I've been out of my body with you
I feel alone, feel at home
Feel like nothing is true

You take me to a place where my senses gave way
Turn it round, shut it down, what the people say
Climbing up, coming down, gonna give you some
Take my hand and let it come, let it come, let it...

Take it back when she knows that your doing it right
Because everybody else knows what their taking tonight

But I just wanna bring it round
We, we're gonna get there tonight

Its been so far I've been walking the line of my time
Wake me up to the stars we are coming home
I know we had a chase but we're out of time

We have sold in the cold, physical desires
Set me free, set me out on the run
Lift me up to the sun, to the sun, to the...

When your burning down, when your burning down
It's the way that you think that I know it's too late

But I just want to bring it round
We, were gonna get there tonight
I just want to take you down
We, were gonna bring you round

But I just want to bring it round
We, were gonna get there tonight

Endless (for SLM)

Tearing my hair out
Fingernails dig deep into my skin
I can't forget where I've been
Inside I remember
What has failed and what has fallen
What more of my sanity can be stolen?

I can see them coming
Rushing at me from all directions
Throwing at me their affections
But solid walls invisible
Keep all hands from pushing through
No love is strong enough to break into

I look around and begin to see
This was all because of me
Countless drops of blood set free
But still no fucking guarantee

Another fucking pill
To stall my life's inevitable end
Drop it all and just pretend
Just one more drink
To choke the pain until its numb
To hold back the tears of a zero sum

(Three) remain at my side
They hold out their arms to catch me
To save me from what I fear I'll soon be
Every day is a new hell
Anything to be taken from here
Somewhere I've yet to shed a tear

I look inside and begin to see
That I have lost sight of me
With all dark thoughts I agree
The definition of who I will be

Every song has faded
Ever movie has ended
Shall I die for each and every breath
Until life becomes constant death?

"Your Song" from Moulin Rouge

is not today's song of the day. Its actually yesterday's song of the day. I completely forgot to post it, but its not too early into today, so I think I'm good for it. Anyway, I am admitting to just loving this movie by making this the song of the day. Its just great, really. Not much else to be said. And hell, I'll say, Ewan McGregor has a goddamned beautiful voice. This song is particularly special to me because I usually sing it to a very special girl I know. But enough smoochy-smooch talk, everyone should see this movie. Period. Song is in the movie, and its better when accompanied by the visual thing too. Originally written and performed by Elton John.

My gift is my song
And this one's for you
And you can tell everybody
That this is your song
It maybe quite simple
But now that it's done
Hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind
That I put down in words
How wonderful life is now you're in the world

Sat on the roof
And I kicked off the moss
Well some of the verses well
They got me quite cross
But the sun's been kind
While I wrote this song
It's for people like you that
Keep it turned on

So excuse me for forgetting
But these things I do
You see I've forgotten
If they're green or they're blue
Anyway the thing is well I really mean
Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen

And you can tell everybody
This is your song
It may be quite simple
But now that it's done
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind that I put down in words

How wonderful life is now you're in the world
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is now you're in the world

Come Back

You keep walking down the road
Its dark and its wet and its cold
But you keep walking down the road
I can't stop you I can't stop you I can't stop you
And you keep walking down the road

I wish you'd come back
Where I know you'll stay dry
I wish you'd come back
Where its okay for you to cry
I wish you'd come back
Where we both know you're safe

I'm confused

And I don't know what to do.

I'm stuck. And no one is here to listen.

"We'll be there for you
I believed and I can tell you it's not true
Run away before they find you again
The consequence of the conscience
Is that you'll be left somewhere
Swinging in the air" - Dio

I'm Gonna Write You A Song

I'm gonna write you a song
Without speaking a sound
Cause my mind's long gone
And no good words abound

I'm gonna write you a song
With no words to sing
My pen isn't that strong
Can't quite convey what I'm feeling

I'm gonna write you a song
With my mouth shut tight
My thoughts don't belong
It just doesn't feel right

I'm gonna write you a song
And let the music guide
So my feelings move on
With nowhere to hide

I'm gonna write you a song
Fuck Mr. Frost and fuck Mr. Poe
Sometimes words get it wrong
Because words don't always know

I'm gonna write you a song
A song that says I love you
You can listen to it lifelong
Because it'll never be untrue

Holy shit

I have had the weirdest day.

Holy.
Shit.

Well, at this time, I'm currently enjoying Nirvana's Nevermind album, and searching for downloadable movie clips to place at the end of a song Nick made at my house the other day. Anyone got any sites they know of? I'm not having much luck. Also, Salina's extremely drunk. Which is my entertainment for the evening. God I love that girl.

Sleep soon, church in the morning (not for much longer! aHA!).

Later people.

I just discovered

that Kayo Dot's "Choirs Of The Eye" is a phenomenal album. Its beautiful and crushing. Also the horns are to die for. Go check it out!



myspace.com/kayodot

Wish I Could

Winter's coming
Leaves are falling
I don't know
Where I'm going

Air is colder
Days are dying
I can't see
I can't see you

Wish I could read your mind
Wish I could read your mind
Wish I could read your mind
Wish I could, wish I could

Summer's gone
Sun is setting
Don't remember
What I was doing

Breathing's harder
Must be dying
I can't speak
I can't speak for you

Wish I could read your mind
Wish I could read your mind
Wish I could read your mind
Wish I could, wish I could

I'd take off my hat
I'd take off these shoes
I'd put it down
Just for you

I'd change my mind again
I'd change the words once more
I'd write them down
Just for you

Wish I could read your mind
Wish I could read your mind
Wish I could read your mind
Wish I could, wish I could

Skin's "Blood On Your Hands"

Is the song of the day for this day, September 26th, 2009. Skin was a band that consisted of the two staple members of renowned noise-rock pioneers SWANS (myspace.com/blackswansblackswans), Michael Gira and Jarboe. SWANS were known for basically being a brutally cacophonic wail of utter despair, and Skin is more or less a lighter version, one that is about 1/3rd the density, and twice as melodic, without losing the wail of despair factor. They released two albums, both long out of print, and then changed their name to World Of Skin, and releasing a compilation album of the two albums together in 1988, intertwining songs sung by Michael Gira and songs sung by Jarboe. Its excellent and not overly complicated, and not too simple either. Great music for those eager to fall into a pit of absolute desolation. This song in particular is sung by Jarboe, and played by Michael Gira. Its one of their more melodic pieces, and a fine one at that. Off the compilation album, "The World Of Skin". Give it a listen via the video below.

There's blood on your hands, baby
Baby, there's blood on your hands

Mama's gonna get even with you
Mama's gonna get you back
When all the blood's washed over you
Mama will never forget

Mama loves you too much, baby
Mama loves you too much to cry

Mama loves her darling boy
She'll hold you close in her arms
Mama's gonna wash his sweet body
Mama loves you too much to cry

Mama loves you too much, baby
Mama loves you too much to cry

I Gots

The sniffles. Fuck me. I can't breathe through my nose. And I have nothing to do today because I have no friends. Well, some friends. But they all seem to be busy. Fuck me! Blahhhh.

Well, I don't have much else to say, so in the mean time, here's a hilarious video from YouTube:

Also, Good News

I am now an official employee of Lowe's Home Improvement.



Psyched, as much as one can be for working at a hardware store.

I'm making $9.44/hr as a part time cashier, which is fucking awesome to say the least. And to think I almost didn't wear my suit jacket to the interview, things would have happened very differently. Apparently the manager likes people who dress up for the occasion. Also, a shoutout to Phil Martin, who sealed the deal for me, since he put in a good word. Thanks Phil, who will never see this.

I start at some point in October, just in time for the holidays! AKA the busiest time of the year! I hope to the God I think doesn't care about us that I make it through it all of that bullshit.

ANYWAY, so good news. Which is a first for awhile. Things are finally starting to look up. HELLO WORLD! You've met your match, and his name is Landon Martin. Hear me roar!

Roooooooooooooaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

MuteMath's "Clipping"

Song of the day tuhhday. MuteMath is just awesome, and if this is the future of popular music, count me in. This song mashes raw emotional overload with beautiful melodies. Great listen, coupled with the fact that is group kicks hard ass live, something I should be able to attest to after I see them in October. Song comes off their brand new album, "Armistice". Check it out here:
myspace.com/mutemath.

Feeling overload
Carrying bottled skies around
I've been drowning all along
Wearing out in a faltered sea
And I give up

Common sense failed again
Meddling in a foreign scene
Foreign dream
Time won't spare another sun
Daring me with another choice another choice

I don't know who to fight anymore
I don't know what is right anymore

I don't know how to feel anymore
I don't know what is real anymore

I don't know who to trust anymore
I don't know what I want anymore

I don't know who to blame anymore
I don't know what to say anymore

I don't know what I want anymore
I just don't know anymore

A couple of things

1.) Interview number 2 with Lowe's Home Improvement tomorrow morning. Super nervous and/or stoked, as long as its worth all this getting up and dressed in the end. I need me some moneys and shit!

2.) The season premiere of Crime Scene Investigation is on tonight in approximately 10 minutes. Also super nervous and/or stoked. Hopefully its a good one.

Shortly after that I shall retire for the night, so all you kiddies out there have to wait for more bloggin' til later, ya hear?

k peace bye.

My Dream

Is to be him:

Converge's "Grim Heart/Black Rose"

Song of the day. Not sure if I'll get around to this everyday, but I'll try my damnedest. To be plain, this song is intensely genuine and heartfelt. Jake Bannon is one of my favorite writers/vocalists, and his passionate delivery makes this song. Comes from the album "No Heroes". Check it out via the video below. (myspace.com/converge)

When I see me in your eyes
I just want to go blind
When I build coffin worlds with words
I just want a place to hide
When old ghosts meet new regrets
My daylight fades to grey
When our days bring guilt and shame
My heart turns black

These are my tombs
Painted black and blue
These are my tombs
Painted just for you

Goodnight
Goodnight, dear
Goodbye

Black rose
Be my light in the darkest of days
Be my heart in the darkest of nights
Be my heart

port-royal

I've been very into this group lately. They are an italian 5-piece that creates what could be best described as ambient post-rock with electronica. Basically, múm (myspace.com/mumtheband) meets Tim Hecker (myspace.com/rainbowbloodx) meets Eluvium (www.myspace.com/eluviumtaken) meets Matryoshka (myspace.com/matryoshkamusic) meets Explosions In The Sky (www.myspace.com/explosionsinthesky). Basically. These guys have, crafted quite the melting pot of sound on their newest full-length, "Dying In Time", which spends its 1 hour and 20 minute duration slowly creeeping its way into your veins, and instills this comforting warmth that will have you numb. Its quite possibly the most beautiful album I've ever heard, definitely the most beautiful album of 2009. Almost every song flows into the other, which helps give the album the feeling of being one ever-expanding piece, that evolves over the course of 80 minutes. Its delicate enough to fall asleep to (which I have done on a number of occasions), but intricate enough to maintain a daytime run-through. This is the perfect music for a brisk winter morning walk through the park. Its the aural version of a massage, because this music relaxes the ear like nothing I've ever heard before. Highly highly HIGHLY recommended for those who enjoy beautiful, relaxing music.

Check this band out at: myspace.com/uptheroyals

For fans of: Tim Hecker, Eluvium, Stars Of The Lid, múm, Matryoshka, MGR, Explosions In The Sky, and Godspeed You! Black Emperor.

The only person this should scare more than me is you

Fuck you. Fuck your promises. Fuck your reasons. Fuck what you said I meant to you. Fuck what you want me to be for you. Fuck you. I'm not a fucking toy, for you to fucking play with it, to fucking destroy, and to fucking dispose. Thinking about you makes me fucking sick. I regret you with all that is in me.

Everything was perfect until you found a better me than me. And the only thing I hate more than myself for allowing myself to open up my everything to you is the fact that you shit on all of it after I did. I have no more patience for your games. Your fake promises and your lies. You had me thinking I could live with myself again. And then you reminded me why this entire fucking human race boils my blood. I hate you.

I hope to be an eternal reminder of the pain you cause.

...


I can't expect to understand what goes on in your head. Its probably as messy as mine up there. Things can get really complicated, and you don't mean to hurt anybody, but it just sort of...happens. Its out of your control, you had to make a decision. A decision for yourself. And if it meant someone got trampled on in the process, you didn't intend for it, but it had to happen. I've done it. I know the feeling.

But I'll tell you what I'll do that she didn't do: I'll stick around. Yeah, you might not feel like it will ever happen again, but who knows? He might be bad news. Who knows, he might be a jerk. Who knows how long he'll last. He might cause you to remember how happy you were with me. Who's to say that won't happen? I can't lose my cool at you for trying to figure out yourself. Its important that I not create another problem for you to worry about. You need to be sure of as many things as you can to stay sane, in a world of uncertainty about yourself and who you are. So I hope that while you might not know what or who you want, you can know that I'm always your friend, and I'll be there for you, long after he's gone. Long after totally raaaddd awesome cool guy is gone. I'll be there. Because I love you.

I believe we have a future. Its the only thing left for me to believe.


...


Indecision is a terrible, terrible thing.

Walk Away

Go, go rot
In your grave
Where I've put you
Where I want you to be

Go, go rot
In your coffin
Where I've placed you
Where you ought to be

Get, get back
In my life
Where I loved you
Where you used to be

Get, get back
In my arms
Where I held you
Where I knew you wanted to be

If you took it back
To where it was
When you didn't know
You would wonder
If you should take it back
To where it was
When you didn't know me
What would you do?

And If I took it back
To where it was
When I didn't know
I would wonder
If I should take it back
To where it was
When you didn't know me
What would I do?

How can I walk away from my heart
When its still inside of me
Reminding me with every beat
Of its absolute necessity

Hi

I will be posting a few different types of things on this blog:

a.) lyrical poems (driven by political, social, and relational views)

b.) music recommendations/reviews

c.) various rants


Happy reading.