Ken Mayfield

Love, where have you gone

Have you left me to drown in my own sorrow and choke on my own curses?

I am forced to sleep without you by my side

And my only reminder sleeps across the hall

Our daughter, she is beautiful

I see your eyes in hers, and I hear your voice in hers

You say I do…

And you did, but now you’ve left

Our house has never been a home, only a tomb for lonely hearts

I dream of your return

My long nights away have come and gone, but how could I have known the price?

I only ever toiled for your happiness, and now I must toil for hers

Only without you

I need you, she needs you

I’m a clueless father at best, and she has no mother

How could you have traded her away for this?

How could you justify such abandonment

Knowing she will never speak to you again

And all she ever needed was for you to be there

The only place you never were

I press on, and try to give her everything that she needs

But its not enough

I’m not enough without you

You said I do…

And I do. I’ve always loved you, but I can see you no longer exist

Lying still in the rain and wind, cold and wet but unflinching, suffering in pain but unmoving

I stand here waiting to be removed

To be taken somewhere I’ve not been

And should never go

But I’d rather go than stay here

My mind is spinning circles

A mental nausea setting in

I have not been touched

I have not been moved

I have not been bothered

In so many years

I have not been felt

I have not been held

I have not been led

In so many years

Lying still in the rain and wind

Cold and wet but unflinching

Suffering in pain but unmoving

I have not been led

In so many years

Call

What has become of a once honest movement?
Reduced to empty slogans and pointless symbols
You’re calling from all corners for change
But remaining in the corners all the same

Progression is not color-coordinated

Standing still gets you nowhere
The fear keeps you here
Your pride must be found in strength
So stand up!

Stand up and march towards those who oppress you
And do not back down
Coming out of the closet means nothing
If you don’t leave your house and most importantly, above all things
LIVE...and continue to live
This is not a cause you die for, but a cause you live for

Progress is not color-coordinated

Fuck this “movement” of standing still and for fuck’s sake
MOVE

Ruby's Icon

I have seen my love on the other side
She beckons me with arms open wide
But how am I on this road to pass
When all the ground is broken glass?

Blinded

Every taste bitter, goes down so sweet
It controls me, it is me
It bursts forth from these veins
Terrible convulsions and their mocking laughter
This is all a sick game I must play, and I'm losing
Light not fading away, but snuffed out by a hand I once trusted
The hand that once guided me...
They snicker in the chilling darkness

Euphoriac

Euphoriac
Wanders the space
Sleeps in the sky
Floats above the ground
Colors shifting smooth
Patters in the eyes
Glazed by the haze
Of the gods greatest gift

Breathe it in, choke
Breathe it out, sigh

Carried by the wind above
Mountains high
Sight unbound
Conversing with the clouds
Raining down on us
Numb to its rage
Slowly marching on
Into the sun's face

With defiance and undying gaze
Sun shines in the eyes of
Euphoriac

Where Is The Lonely Man

Sip down that drink now
Let it cool your burning throat
God knows its been a hundred miles
Since the last time you had
If the wind would subside
You might continue on
But maybe it won't...
And maybe you don't (want to)...

Where is the lonely man?
He is walking right beside me
Where is the lonely man?
He is hiding in my shadow
Where is the lonely man?
He is hanging from the evergreen tree

Dirt kicked up from boots scraping
Its such a long walk home
The sun sets on weary eyes
A soul of withered diatribes
Where is home anymore
Is it the place I left
Or the place I'm going
Where am I going
Anyway

Where is the lonely man?
He is walking right beside me
Where is the lonely man?
He is hiding in my shadow
Where is the lonely man?
He is hanging from the evergreen tree

Dreams that won't come true
Don't go away
They just remind us
Of who we could be
If we weren't who we
Are now

I am hanging from the evergreen tree