Fuck this shit

You are all a waste of my time.

Altar

They are among us
They are us
Seeping from wrists
Dissolving our bones
Our eyes roll back
Into our heads
We see the truth
We make amends

Oh prophet of
The pulpit's call
Your cursings hold
Fast to our lungs
We're gasping for
Our final breath
(But) we raise our fists
We make demands

We see the truth
We make amends
We raise our fists
We make demands

Fragmented color
Scattered about
Our precious deeds
Our collections
Swallowed like shards
Of broken glass
Bleeding inside
What must escape

Altar has been
Finally prepared
The choir chants
A glorious refrain
Unclothe our bodies
Expose our souls
Gouge out our eyes
For heavenly rape

Bleeding inside
What must escape
Gouge out our eyes
Before heavenly rape

What I Got For Christmas

-"Wavering Radiant" by ISIS on vinyl (Sweeeeet)
-Official U.S. Navy peacoat (super sweet)
-New heads for my snare drum (with rings to cut off the resonance!)
-A case for my acoustic guitar (finally!)
-Electronic dartboard (> magnetic dartboard for sure)
-Various cash donations
-"365 Stupidest Things Ever Said" daily calendar (endless lol's)
-Pro-Mark 5A wood tip drum sticks
-Various accessories for car
-Starbucks gift card

All in all, a great Christmas. Here I come 2010...

ITS CHRISTMAS

The Bones Of Our Bodies...Collected

The bones of our bodies...collected
For burial

Beneath the ground
Swimming towards the center
Urgently, in need of... (renewal)
Cannot survive

"Though the earth may rise
And its monsters thrown upon me
I will not stop until..."

They came together...collected
Force as one

Touched upon its core
Swirling through the streams
Swiftly, in search of the... (heart)

"We still lie below
Now wait for death exposing
New life to fulfill"

We are the lights
Burning within
Lanterns blown out
(To) be lit again...

The 2009 Elite

The moment you have all been waiting for. My list of the best albums/songs/etc. of 2009. With no further delay, here it is. Enjoy. As usual, all of it is recommended.

(P.S. - main genre divisions are between Metal and everything else.)

-Best Song (Metal)


1. Behemoth - "Shemhamforash"
2. NILE - "Permitting The Noble Dead To Descend To The Underworld"
3. Beneath The Massacre - "Harvest Of Hate"
4. Dying Fetus - "Conceived Into Enslavement"
5. Napalm Death - "On The Brink Of Extinction"

-Best Album (Metal)


1. Dying Fetus - "Descend Into Depravity
2. Behemoth - "Evangelion"
3. NILE - "Those Whom The Gods Detest"
4. ZAO - "Awake?"
5. Augury - "Fragmentary Evidence"

-Biggest Improvement (Metal)


1. Slayer - "World Painted Blood"
2. Slipknot - "All Hope Is Gone"
3. Megadeth - "Endgame"
4. Gigantic Brain - "I Swallow 16 Red Planets"
5. The Chariot - "Wars & Rumors Of Wars"

-Biggest Disappointment (Metal)


1. Impending Doom "The Serpent Servant"
2. Vader - "Necropolis"
3. Alice In Chains - "Black Gives Way To Blue"
4. Between The Buried & Me - "The Great Misdirect"
5. Gorod - "The Process Of A New Decline"

-Biggest Surprise Album (Metal)


1. Portal - "Swarth"
2. Cattle Decapitation - "The Harvest Floor"
3. Augury - "Fragmentary Evidence"
4. Dethklok - "Dethalbum II"
5. Shadows Fall - "Retribution"

-Best New Band (Metal)


1. Shrinebuilder
2. Viraemia
3. Masachist
4. Wretched
5. Eyes Of Noctum

-Best Old Timer Album (Metal)


1. Heaven & Hell - "The Devil You Know"
2. Cannibal Corpse - "Evisceration Plague"
3. ZAO - "Awake?"
4. Slayer - "World Painted Blood"
5. Suffocation - "Blood Oath"

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-Best Song (Other)


1. Converge - "Wretched World"
2. ISIS - "Hand Of The Host"
3. Sunn O))) - "Alice"
4. He Is Legend - "Stranger Danger"
5. maudlin of the Well - "Excerpt From 6,000,000,000,000 Miles Before The First, Or, The Revisitation Of The Blue Ghost"

-Best Album (Other)


1. Converge - "Axe To Fall"
2. Sunn O))) - "Monoliths & Dimensions"
3. ISIS - "Wavering Radiant"
4. He Is Legend - "It Hates You"
5. Om - "God Is Good"

-Biggest Improvement (Other)


1. Neon Horse - "Haunted Horse: Songs Of Love, Defiance, & Delusion"
2. Om - "God Is Good"
3. Sunn O))) - "Monoliths & Dimensions"
4. Pelican - "What We All Come To Need"
5. MuteMath - "Armistice"

-Biggest Disappointment (Other)


1. mewithoutYou - "Its All Crazy! Its All False! Its All A Dream! Its Alright"
2. Muse - "The Resistance"
3. Marilyn Manson - "The High End Of Low"
4. Irepress - "Sol Eye, Sea I"
5. Jesu - "Infinity"

-Biggest Surprise Album (Other)


1. maudlin of the Well - "Part The Second"
2. Mastodon - "Crack The Skye"
3. port-royal - "Dying In Time"
4. Maylene & The Sons Of Disaster - "III"
5. Steve Von Till - "A Grave Is A Grim Horse"

-Best New Band (Other)


1. Them Crooked Vultures
2. port-royal
3. Greymachine
4. Orbs
5. Jodis

-Best Old-Timer Album (Other)


1. ISIS - "Wavering Radiant"
2. maudlin of the Well - "Part The Second"
3. Jesu - "Opiate Sun"
4. Converge - "Axe To Fall"
5. Thrice - "Beggars"

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Best Song: goes to the band(s) that released the best song of the year in question.
Best Album: goes to the band(s) that released the best album of the year in question.
Biggest Improvement: goes to the band(s) that improved the most from their last album musically.
Biggest Disappointment: goes to the band(s) whose latest album was received lower than expectations.
Biggest Surprise Album: goes to the band(s) that unexpectedly released an amazing album.
Best New Band: goes to the band(s) that were created and/or released their first songs in the year in question.
Best Old-Timer Album: goes to the band(s) that has been around for at least 10 years, and released a solid album in the year in question.

Fuck you President Obama, fuck you Congress, fuck you Washington D.C.

Anyone who knows me is well aware of my radically centrist political views (har har paradox). So I just want to put it out there for those who DON'T know me very well, that I am neither a Republican or a Democrat. This is because both sides of our pathetic excuse for a government tend to routinely piss me off by doing radically stupid things. And at present its the asses of Washington (Democrats, har har pun) that are pissing me off.

I got this link from a friend of mine, the actual website that these statistics are from is posted below. This is essentially a list of things that your trillions of tax payer dollars that didn't exist until November of 2008 are being spent on. As the blog put it, "feeling stimulated yet"?

This is from a Republican site, written by Senators John McCain of Arizona and Senator Tom Coburn of Oklahoma. As well, this list is basically being copied from a right-wing blog. So feel free to question this information in and of itself (for most of what politicians tell you these days absolutely should be), but if it is indeed true, and not just some hoaxed stats created to make the Dems look bad (as if they needed any help), then I personally would like to offer President Obama and his administration, as well as Congress and pretty much all of Washington D.C. a hardy go fuck yourself.

Enjoy (and cringe, if need be):

http://annoyedelephants.wordpress.com/2009/12/09/feelin-stimulated-yet/

$30,000 to study how methamphetamines affect the sex drives of rats.
$221,355 to study why young men don’t like condoms.
$219,000 to study the “hookup behavior” of female college coeds
$59,900,000 to upgrade computers for the California State Government…. that were upgraded 4 years ago
$564,635 for Duke U. students to go on a summer trip to Costa Rica
$1,200,000 for a Horse Museum in Kentucky
$50,000,000 for fish food
$122,000 for fish art
$1,300,000 for signs that say “Recovery.gov”
$100,000 to remodel a Martini Bar and a Brazilian Steakhouse, both in Missouri
$831,700 for the Lone Tree Golf Course in Antioch, CA to use recycled water.
$117,000,000 for a building makeover of the IRS building in Andover, MA that’s slated to be closed.
$88,000 to repave a road in Atlanta, GA that was re-paved in 2007.
$389,000 to study marijuana and malt liquor use by Buffalo, NY residents
$100,000 to fund anti-capitalist puppet shows
$1,570,000 to find fossil fuels… in Argentina
$350,000,000 to develop a map for a government website that shows broadband availability… that will be obsolete by the time it goes online.
$54,000,000 for a wine train for tourists in CA
$1,900,000,000 to cover costs of a failed cleanup of the Hanford Nuclear Site.
$2,000,000 to extend a Tourist Train in Nevada
$4,700,000 to research and develop supersonic corporate jets.
$5,900,000 to an advertising agency to promote the DTV changeover. Created 3 jobs. For 39 days.
$133,000,000 to renovate a Federal Building in Oregon. A new Federal Building in California recently cost $144 mil to build from scratch.
$5,000,000 to develop a geothermal heating plan for a mall in Oak Ridge, TN that’s “almost empty”.
$8,000,000 to build a wastewater treatment center in Oregon – for tourists!
$272,000,000 for improvements at FAA-designated “low-priority” airports.
$15,000 for a storytelling festival in Utah.
$1,100,000 to “beautify” Hollywood, CA’s Sunset Strip. Yes, the same one in tons of movies.
$30,000,000 to Defense Dept. contractors suspended for suspicion of fraud
$1,300,000,000 for Amtrak, which is currently losing $32 per passenger as people use “cars” and “airplanes” more.
$2,000,000 for a new fire station in Truckee, NV. Problem: they have no fire fighters.
$25,000 for Sykesville, MD. They don’t know why.
$935,000 for a dance troupe to weatherize homes in DC.
$255,000,000 for ARC – a government-backed small business loan organization that expects a 65% default rate.
$75,129 for Paragould, AR to purchase iPod Touches for children.
$49,818 and 53,940 lbs of carbon to send 11 people from Alaska to the Copenhagen Global Warming Conference going on right now.
$800,000 for an Ohio town to create a zone where trains can’t blow their whistles.
$90,000 to teach people to cooperate by watching birds.

The Best Albums Of The Decade

In the humble (but totally correct) opinion of yours truly, all of the greatest music from the year 2000 to the end of this year, 2009, in alphabetical order. I recommend all of these albums to anyone who enjoys any genre of music. There has to be at least one on here you'd like.

A.
Aborted - Strychnine.213
Agalloch - Ashes Against The Grain
Ahab - The Call Of The Wretched Sea
The Amenta - n0n
Amon Amarth - Twilight Of The Thunder God
Animosity- Animal
As Cities Burn - Come Now, Sleep
Augury - Fragmentary Evidence

B.
Behemoth - Demigod
Beneath The Massacre - Dystopia
Between The Buried & Me - Alaska
Between The Buried & Me - Colors
The Black Dahlia Murder - Nocturnal
Blotted Science - The Machinations Of Dementia
Blue Scholars - Bayani
Boris - Pink
Botch - We Are The Romans!
Burning Witch - Crippled Lucifer (Seven Psalms To Our Lord Of Light)
Busdriver - Temporary Forever

C.
Cannibal Corpse - KILL
Cattle Decapitation - The Harvest Floor
Celtic Frost - Monotheist
Cephalic Carnage - Xenosapian
The Chariot - Everything Is Alive, Everything Is Breathing, Nothing Is Dead, Nothing Is Bleeding
The Chariot - Wars And Rumors Of Wars
Chevelle - Wonder What's Next
Chevelle - Vena Sera
Children Of Bodom - Follow The Reaper
Converge - No Heroes
Converge - Axe To Fall
Creed - Weathered
Crimson Moonlight - Veil Of Remembrance
Crimson Moonlight - In Depths Of Dreams Unconscious
Cynic - Traced In Air

D.
Dӓlek - Abandoned Language
Dӓlek - Gutter Tactics
Darkthrone - Fuck Off And Die
Decapitated - Nihility
Demon Hunter - Summer Of Darkness
Devourment - Unleash The Carnivore
Doomriders - Darkness Come Alive
Down - III: Over The Under
Drottnar - Welterwerk
Dub Trio - Another Sound Is Dying
Dying Fetus - Destroy The Opposition
Dying Fetus - War Of Attrition
Dying Fetus - Descend Into Depravity

E.
Earth - Hex: Or, Printing In The Infernal Method
Earth - The Bees Made Honey In The Lion's Skull
Earthsuit - Kaleidoscope Superior
Ed Gein - Judas Goats & Diesel Eaters
Eminem - Encore
Encryptor - Sermon Decay
Exhale - Prototype
Explosions In The Sky - The Earth Is Not A Cold Dead Place
Explosions In The Sky - All Of A Sudden I Miss Everyone
Extol - Undeceived
Extol - The Blueprint Dives

F.
The Faceless - Planetary Duality

G.
Genghis Tron - Board Up The House
Goatsnake - Flower Of Disease
Godflesh - Hymns
Godspeed You! Black Emperor - Lift Your Skinny Fists Like Antennas To Heaven
Godspeed You! Black Emperor - Slow Riot For New Zero Kanada
Gojira - The Way Of All Flesh
Gorod - Leading Vision
Greymachine - Disconnected

H.
He Is Legend - Suck Out The Poison
He Is Legend - It Hates You
Heaven & Hell - The Devil You Know
The Horrors - Strange House

I.
Immortal - Sons Of Northern Darkness
In Flames - Come Clarity
Insect Warfare - World Extermination
ISIS - Oceanic
ISIS - Panopticon
ISIS - In The Absence Of Truth
ISIS - Wavering Radiant
Isole - Forevermore

J.
Jesu - Silver
Jesu - Conqueror
Jesu - Why Are We Not Perfect?
Jesu - Opiate Sun
Job For A Cowboy - DOOM
Job For A Cowboy - Ruination
Johnny Cash - American III: Solitary Man
Johnny Cash - American V: A Hundred Highways

K.
Kaki King - Dreaming Of Revenge
Karl Sanders - Saurian Meditations
Karl Sanders - Saurian Exorcisms
Kayo Dot - Choirs Of The Eye
Kayo Dot - Blue Lambency Downward
Krisiun - AssassiNation
Kronos - Colossal Titan Strife
Kronos - The Hellenic Terror

L.
Living Sacrifice - The Hammering Process
Living Sacrifice - Conceived In Fire
The Lonely Island - Incredibad

M.
Mastodon - Crack The Skye
Matisyahu - Youth
Matryoshka - Zatracenie
maudlin of the Well - Part The Second
Mayhem - Ordo Ad Chao
Maylene & The Sons Of Disaster - S/T
Maylene & The Sons Of Disaster - III
Megadeth - The System Has Failed
Megadeth - Endgame
Meshuggah - obZen
mewithoutYou - Catch For Us The Foxes
mewithoutYou - Brother, Sister
Misericordiam - Unanimity And The Cessation Of Hostility
Misery Signals - Mirrors
Misery Signals - Controller
Modest Mouse - We Were Dead Before The Ship Even Sank
Mogwai - Mr. Beast
Mouth Of The Architect - The Ties That Bind
mum - Finally, We Are No One
MGR - Nova Lux
MuteMath - S/T
MuteMath - Armistice

N.
Napalm Death - Smear Campaign
Napalm Death - Time Waits For No Slave
Nasum - Shift
Necrophagist - Epitaph
Neon Horse - S/T
Neon Horse - Haunted Horse: Songs Of Love, Defiance, & Delusion
NILE - Annihilation Of The Wicked
NILE - Those Whom The Gods Detest
Norma Jean - Bless The Martyr, Kiss The Child
Norma Jean - O' God, The Aftermath! (The Marvelous End Of The Exhausted Contender)

O.
Om - Pilgrimage
Om - God Is Good
Opeth - Damnation
Opeth - Ghost Reveries
Origin - Antithesis
Orphaned Land - Mabool

P.
P.O.D. - Satellite
Pelican - What We All Come To Need
port-royal - Dying In Time
Portal - Swarth
Psycroptic - Symbols Of Failure
Psycroptic - Ob(Servant)

R.
Red Sparowes - Every Red Heart Shines Toward The Red Sun
The Roots - Game Theory
Russian Circles - Geneva

S.
Saul Williams - The Inevitable Rise And Liberation Of NiggyTardust
Sephiroth - Draconian Poetry
Shadows Fall - The War Within
Silversun Pickups - Carnavas
The Sound Of Animals Fighting - The Ocean & The Sun
Spawn Of Possession - Noctambulant
Staple - S/T
Starflyer 59 - My Island
Stars Of The Lid - ...And Their Refinement Of The Decline
Steve Von Till - A Grave Is A Grim Horse
Suffocation - Blood Oath
Sufjan Stevens - Greetings From Michigan, The Great Lake State
Sufjan Stevens - Come On, Feel The Illinoise!
Sunn O))) & Boris - Altar
Sunn O))) - White1
Sunn O))) - Black1
Sunn O))) - Domkirke
Sunn O))) - Monoliths & Dimensions
Symphony X - Paradise Lost

T.
Terror - The Damned, The Shamed
Them Crooked Vulture - S/T
Thievery Corporation - Radio Retaliation
Thrice - The Alchemy Index Pt. II: Water
Tim Hecker - Harmony In Ultraviolet
Tim Hecker - An Imaginary Country
Town Called Machine - We Are Not Sick
TRENCHES - The Tide Shall Swallow Us Whole

V.
Vader - Impressions In Blood
Viraemia - S/T
Virgin Black - Elegant...And Dying
Virgin Black - Requiem - Mezzo Forte
Virgin Black - Requiem - Fortissimo
Vital Remains - Icons Of Evil
Volbeat - Rock The Rebel/Metal The Devil

W.
Weedeater - God Luck & Good Speed
Wolves In The Throne Room - Two Hunters
Wolves In The Throne Room - Malevolent Grain
Wretched - The Exodus Of Autonomy

Z.
ZAO - Self-Titled
ZAO - Parade Of Chaos
ZAO - The Funeral Of God
ZAO - The Fear Is What Keeps Us Here
ZAO - Awake?
Zu - Carboniferous

Blackened Vengeance*

And now that the time has arrived
We arm ourselves with unholy wrath
To take of what we have been deprived
And to decimate everything in our path

Armies of the light
Clothed in robes of pure white
Shall be drenched in blood tonight
Disciples of the lord
Your faith shall not be restored
You shall meet death by our sword

For so long we have waited upon the hour
To unleash our ever undivine retribution
The blackened cloud of our hate shall devour
The untainted masses of christian salvation

Armies of the light
Clothed in robes of pure white
Shall be drenched in blood tonight
Disciples of the lord
Your faith shall not be restored
You shall meet death by our sword

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*This is written for a specific genre. This does not reflect any emotional inhibition towards anyone of any faith.

Fuck it.

I miss you.

An Unmarked Grave

Oh my dear how you've changed
For I can no longer look upon your face
And be filled with the joy I once possessed
Now its gone
Replaced with rage
Replaced with hate
Screaming does me no amount of good
Nor does the blood I lose from my own injuries
But to see that you are destroyed
My wish of nights passed by
To come true at last for me

I want you dead, rotting in the soil
To put my mind in no further turmoil
I want your heart in pale hand, still beating
To be the last thing you see while breathing
I want you begging, screaming, please forgive me
To hope for mercy you will never see

The youthful bliss no longer persists
Only weariness aging marrow and bone
The sun that smiled at me each morning
Now is gone
Replaced with scorching heat
Replaced with feelings bittersweet
Omniscient reminder of my lack of inherit good
Despite the blood lost from my own injuries
Your memory has yet to be destroyed
The wish of ever-passing nights
To come true at last for me

I want you dead, rotting in the soil
To put my mind in no further turmoil
I want your heart in pale hand, still beating
To be the last thing that you see while breathing
I want you begging, screaming, please forgive me
To hope for mercy you will never see

Strapped to the chair, you cannot escape
Each window covered, drape by drape
I see the panic on your pale and empty face
Your shallow pathetic life is mine to erase

I want you dead, rotting in the soil
To put my mind in no further turmoil
I want your heart in pale hand, still beating
To be the last thing that you see while breathing
I want you begging, screaming, please forgive me
To hope for mercy you will never see

Sinator

You led us into the temple of deceit
Forced us to bow down at your feet
Painted glorified facade over fact
As the sanctuary pillars began to crack
Damage now irreparably done
But you still think you've won
Let the bastard son of our distress
Be crushed by the rage we possess

Methods placed to gain
Power possessed to obtain
Together sing the refrain
Sinator, sinator, sinator
Policies pushed to enslave
To send us all to our grave
Your patriotism is deprave
Sinator, sinator, sinator

From the rivers of your silicon Babylon
Flows filth swept under the rug for so long
And you raised your cup to toast success
As our hallowed kingdom began to regress
Lies cushion your empire's foundation
Providing no need for proper explanation
But now your refusal to take responsibility
Will be met with our uninhibited hostility

Methods placed to gain
Power possessed to obtain
Together sing the refrain
Sinator, sinator, sinator
Policies pushed to enslave
To send us all to our grave
Your patriotism is deprave
Sinator, sinator, sinator

Hidden behind walls
Hidden behind closed doors
You'd say anything at all
To get us on all fours

Running through the halls
Running from the open doors
You know every empire falls
The time has come for yours

Buy this shirt

My friend JJ (shivtheimpaler.blogspot.com) and his band Monotheist (myspace.com/monotheistmetal) have just finished printing their very own shirt! Its sick and awesome and metal in every way, just like the band. They are only $15 dollars, a great price for a great t-shirt, and you'll be supporting underground metal all at the same time. Buy one for the metalhead in your family, Christmas is coming up you guys! DO IT, you'll be making a worthy investment into the future of this band, and let me tell you it is well-deserved on their part.

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Kitteh

So, I decided recently (estimated time: 9 hours ago) that I want myself a kitteh. And after much time (estimated time: 10 minutes on Petfinder.com), I'm pretty sure I know who I want to be my kitteh. So everyone say hello to my future kitteh Alice:



Her Petfinder profile is as follows (BTW her current name is Lindsay):

"Lindsay is a great kitten in every way. She LOVES attention, gets along with other cats, loves to play, and can be nice and mellow or very active. Her beautiful coat is soft and sleek, and she thoroughly enjoys a good brushing. Becky and Emma are her sisters, and she would love to be with one of them, but would be great with any interactive cat or kitten. Lindsay is up-to-date with routine shots, house trained and spayed/neutered."

Now just to convince my parents to let me do this. You think if I'm paying for the kitten and anything related to its care it would be a solid yes but surprisingly no...

Now not even I can erase you from my memory...

...because I locked you in my mind and swallowed the key and sewed my lips shut tight and kept my hands folded in calm demeanor never expecting you to dig your way out my cerebellum and scrape through my limbic system until I could not stop the vertigo and retched you out my body but oh I recall the days when we were in each others thoughts and we fell asleep with me on your mind and I on yours but then you left in the night and now I fear I will never be home again, for I must have misplaced my key...

Coffins Marked With Your Name (Carved Before You Ever Became)

The horizon births another day
In the valley of dust and decay
The broken here bury their lives
Aspirations to never survive
Barriers of man and of ocean
Set progress in circular motion
And in paths tread years earlier
Lays weary the broken dreamer

Hungry as ever
The daylight shall swallow and sever
Us as meat thrown to the hounds
(And) night shall shed
A curse of fear and almighty dread
Until all our resistance drowns

In day all feel the sky's weight
Spent running from a sealed fate
Coffins marked with your name
Carved before you became
And a seed planted deep inside
Given to be your only guide
Says there is nothing to leave
But even less to believe/achieve

Hungry as ever
The daylight shall swallow and sever
Us as meat thrown to the hounds
(And) night shall shed
A curse of fear and almighty dread
Until all our resistance drowns

The end of this road meets
The other end of the road
No conclusion, no beginning
No climax, no triumph
No interlude, no solitude
And no escape
No escape

Coffins marked with your name
Carved before you became

Hungry as ever
The daylight shall swallow and sever
Us as meat thrown to the hounds
(And) night shall shed
A curse of fear and almighty dread
Until all our resistance drowns

Coffins marked with your name
Carved before you became

A Liar

(Based on true events)

There is a cokehead on the bus. Telling me he don't do no drugs no more cause he don't like them. Makes him all paranoid he says. He says he don't even drink except for last thanksgiving, and it had been a whole year. He's a liar. He asks me if my pupils are enlarged. Says I'm on crack or meth. Tells me he has some for sale. Until he looks at my eyes again and sees that I'm sober. He takes it back. Says it was a joke. No, drugs are bad he says. Makes him anxious. He used to, when he was younger. Now he just drinks on Thanksgiving. And maybe a little bud he says, but just a few hits. But only on Thanksgiving. He don't do them heavy drugs no more. He used to, when he was younger. He's a liar.

Now he just looks at lovely young women on the bus, like her, dreads colored like the lights on a Christmas tree, dressed in fashionable hand-stitched rags, and he begins to rhythmically poetically speak words of his fame. He gets the ladies. Does with them what he pleases. Fucks them in the ass and makes them feel it in their chest. People know his name, and they know his fame. He's a liar. He says he don't have to work for his fortune. Work is a word he doesn't speak. He gets what he wants for his smooth talking, his slick speaking, and his synchronized selection of syllables. This is his name and this is his fame. On the 115 to Mays Pond in the middle of the night. He points his crackfinger at me says "do you have problems? Because problems are no good. You should fix your problems. I fixed my problems. I have no problems." He's a liar. I think to myself if you have no problems than nobody does. "My stop is here. Good day to you sir."

2009 Christmas List

1. Vinyl for any of the following albums:

-ISIS - Wavering Radiant
-Sunn O))) - Monoliths & Dimensions
-Om - God Is Good
-Ahab - The Call Of The Wretched Sea
-Dӓlek - Gutter Tactics
-Jesu - Why Are We Not Perfect or Silver
-Godspeed You! Black Emperor - any
-Kayo Dot - Choirs Of The Eye
-Stars Of The Lid - any
-The Sound Of Animals Fighting - The Ocean & The Sun
-Steve Von Till - A Grave Is A Grim Horse
-Sunn O))) & Boris - Altar
-Tim Hecker - any
-Virgin Black - any
-SWANS - any
-Wolves In The Throne Room - any
-Ravi Shankar - any

2. Clothing (tee-shirts or hoodies) for any of the following bands
(size medium)

-ISIS
-Jesu
-Sunn O)))
-OM
-Godspeed You! Black Emperor
-Converge
-He Is Legend
-Greymachine
-Godflesh
-NILE
-ZAO

3. A black peacoat, medium or large. Any style will do for me really.

Get me something if you are my friend! I demand material possessions as proof of your friendship!

We Don't Get Much Snow Around Here, So We Make Frost Angels Instead

If you grow tired of breathing
So incredibly deep
You and your weary lungs can rest
In my lap as we look to the sky
And speak of what we know
What we don't know
What we wish we knew
And what we wish we'd never been told
Look now dear
The sun is almost done setting
Leaving a frost-bitten landscape
To rise on another lonely winter day
(Everything finds its conclusion you say, but I say nay)