Fuck this shit

You are all a waste of my time.

Altar

They are among us
They are us
Seeping from wrists
Dissolving our bones
Our eyes roll back
Into our heads
We see the truth
We make amends

Oh prophet of
The pulpit's call
Your cursings hold
Fast to our lungs
We're gasping for
Our final breath
(But) we raise our fists
We make demands

We see the truth
We make amends
We raise our fists
We make demands

Fragmented color
Scattered about
Our precious deeds
Our collections
Swallowed like shards
Of broken glass
Bleeding inside
What must escape

Altar has been
Finally prepared
The choir chants
A glorious refrain
Unclothe our bodies
Expose our souls
Gouge out our eyes
For heavenly rape

Bleeding inside
What must escape
Gouge out our eyes
Before heavenly rape

What I Got For Christmas

-"Wavering Radiant" by ISIS on vinyl (Sweeeeet)
-Official U.S. Navy peacoat (super sweet)
-New heads for my snare drum (with rings to cut off the resonance!)
-A case for my acoustic guitar (finally!)
-Electronic dartboard (> magnetic dartboard for sure)
-Various cash donations
-"365 Stupidest Things Ever Said" daily calendar (endless lol's)
-Pro-Mark 5A wood tip drum sticks
-Various accessories for car
-Starbucks gift card

All in all, a great Christmas. Here I come 2010...

ITS CHRISTMAS

The Bones Of Our Bodies...Collected

The bones of our bodies...collected
For burial

Beneath the ground
Swimming towards the center
Urgently, in need of... (renewal)
Cannot survive

"Though the earth may rise
And its monsters thrown upon me
I will not stop until..."

They came together...collected
Force as one

Touched upon its core
Swirling through the streams
Swiftly, in search of the... (heart)

"We still lie below
Now wait for death exposing
New life to fulfill"

We are the lights
Burning within
Lanterns blown out
(To) be lit again...

The 2009 Elite

The moment you have all been waiting for. My list of the best albums/songs/etc. of 2009. With no further delay, here it is. Enjoy. As usual, all of it is recommended.

(P.S. - main genre divisions are between Metal and everything else.)

-Best Song (Metal)


1. Behemoth - "Shemhamforash"
2. NILE - "Permitting The Noble Dead To Descend To The Underworld"
3. Beneath The Massacre - "Harvest Of Hate"
4. Dying Fetus - "Conceived Into Enslavement"
5. Napalm Death - "On The Brink Of Extinction"

-Best Album (Metal)


1. Dying Fetus - "Descend Into Depravity
2. Behemoth - "Evangelion"
3. NILE - "Those Whom The Gods Detest"
4. ZAO - "Awake?"
5. Augury - "Fragmentary Evidence"

-Biggest Improvement (Metal)


1. Slayer - "World Painted Blood"
2. Slipknot - "All Hope Is Gone"
3. Megadeth - "Endgame"
4. Gigantic Brain - "I Swallow 16 Red Planets"
5. The Chariot - "Wars & Rumors Of Wars"

-Biggest Disappointment (Metal)


1. Impending Doom "The Serpent Servant"
2. Vader - "Necropolis"
3. Alice In Chains - "Black Gives Way To Blue"
4. Between The Buried & Me - "The Great Misdirect"
5. Gorod - "The Process Of A New Decline"

-Biggest Surprise Album (Metal)


1. Portal - "Swarth"
2. Cattle Decapitation - "The Harvest Floor"
3. Augury - "Fragmentary Evidence"
4. Dethklok - "Dethalbum II"
5. Shadows Fall - "Retribution"

-Best New Band (Metal)


1. Shrinebuilder
2. Viraemia
3. Masachist
4. Wretched
5. Eyes Of Noctum

-Best Old Timer Album (Metal)


1. Heaven & Hell - "The Devil You Know"
2. Cannibal Corpse - "Evisceration Plague"
3. ZAO - "Awake?"
4. Slayer - "World Painted Blood"
5. Suffocation - "Blood Oath"

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-Best Song (Other)


1. Converge - "Wretched World"
2. ISIS - "Hand Of The Host"
3. Sunn O))) - "Alice"
4. He Is Legend - "Stranger Danger"
5. maudlin of the Well - "Excerpt From 6,000,000,000,000 Miles Before The First, Or, The Revisitation Of The Blue Ghost"

-Best Album (Other)


1. Converge - "Axe To Fall"
2. Sunn O))) - "Monoliths & Dimensions"
3. ISIS - "Wavering Radiant"
4. He Is Legend - "It Hates You"
5. Om - "God Is Good"

-Biggest Improvement (Other)


1. Neon Horse - "Haunted Horse: Songs Of Love, Defiance, & Delusion"
2. Om - "God Is Good"
3. Sunn O))) - "Monoliths & Dimensions"
4. Pelican - "What We All Come To Need"
5. MuteMath - "Armistice"

-Biggest Disappointment (Other)


1. mewithoutYou - "Its All Crazy! Its All False! Its All A Dream! Its Alright"
2. Muse - "The Resistance"
3. Marilyn Manson - "The High End Of Low"
4. Irepress - "Sol Eye, Sea I"
5. Jesu - "Infinity"

-Biggest Surprise Album (Other)


1. maudlin of the Well - "Part The Second"
2. Mastodon - "Crack The Skye"
3. port-royal - "Dying In Time"
4. Maylene & The Sons Of Disaster - "III"
5. Steve Von Till - "A Grave Is A Grim Horse"

-Best New Band (Other)


1. Them Crooked Vultures
2. port-royal
3. Greymachine
4. Orbs
5. Jodis

-Best Old-Timer Album (Other)


1. ISIS - "Wavering Radiant"
2. maudlin of the Well - "Part The Second"
3. Jesu - "Opiate Sun"
4. Converge - "Axe To Fall"
5. Thrice - "Beggars"

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Best Song: goes to the band(s) that released the best song of the year in question.
Best Album: goes to the band(s) that released the best album of the year in question.
Biggest Improvement: goes to the band(s) that improved the most from their last album musically.
Biggest Disappointment: goes to the band(s) whose latest album was received lower than expectations.
Biggest Surprise Album: goes to the band(s) that unexpectedly released an amazing album.
Best New Band: goes to the band(s) that were created and/or released their first songs in the year in question.
Best Old-Timer Album: goes to the band(s) that has been around for at least 10 years, and released a solid album in the year in question.

Fuck you President Obama, fuck you Congress, fuck you Washington D.C.

Anyone who knows me is well aware of my radically centrist political views (har har paradox). So I just want to put it out there for those who DON'T know me very well, that I am neither a Republican or a Democrat. This is because both sides of our pathetic excuse for a government tend to routinely piss me off by doing radically stupid things. And at present its the asses of Washington (Democrats, har har pun) that are pissing me off.

I got this link from a friend of mine, the actual website that these statistics are from is posted below. This is essentially a list of things that your trillions of tax payer dollars that didn't exist until November of 2008 are being spent on. As the blog put it, "feeling stimulated yet"?

This is from a Republican site, written by Senators John McCain of Arizona and Senator Tom Coburn of Oklahoma. As well, this list is basically being copied from a right-wing blog. So feel free to question this information in and of itself (for most of what politicians tell you these days absolutely should be), but if it is indeed true, and not just some hoaxed stats created to make the Dems look bad (as if they needed any help), then I personally would like to offer President Obama and his administration, as well as Congress and pretty much all of Washington D.C. a hardy go fuck yourself.

Enjoy (and cringe, if need be):

http://annoyedelephants.wordpress.com/2009/12/09/feelin-stimulated-yet/

$30,000 to study how methamphetamines affect the sex drives of rats.
$221,355 to study why young men don’t like condoms.
$219,000 to study the “hookup behavior” of female college coeds
$59,900,000 to upgrade computers for the California State Government…. that were upgraded 4 years ago
$564,635 for Duke U. students to go on a summer trip to Costa Rica
$1,200,000 for a Horse Museum in Kentucky
$50,000,000 for fish food
$122,000 for fish art
$1,300,000 for signs that say “Recovery.gov”
$100,000 to remodel a Martini Bar and a Brazilian Steakhouse, both in Missouri
$831,700 for the Lone Tree Golf Course in Antioch, CA to use recycled water.
$117,000,000 for a building makeover of the IRS building in Andover, MA that’s slated to be closed.
$88,000 to repave a road in Atlanta, GA that was re-paved in 2007.
$389,000 to study marijuana and malt liquor use by Buffalo, NY residents
$100,000 to fund anti-capitalist puppet shows
$1,570,000 to find fossil fuels… in Argentina
$350,000,000 to develop a map for a government website that shows broadband availability… that will be obsolete by the time it goes online.
$54,000,000 for a wine train for tourists in CA
$1,900,000,000 to cover costs of a failed cleanup of the Hanford Nuclear Site.
$2,000,000 to extend a Tourist Train in Nevada
$4,700,000 to research and develop supersonic corporate jets.
$5,900,000 to an advertising agency to promote the DTV changeover. Created 3 jobs. For 39 days.
$133,000,000 to renovate a Federal Building in Oregon. A new Federal Building in California recently cost $144 mil to build from scratch.
$5,000,000 to develop a geothermal heating plan for a mall in Oak Ridge, TN that’s “almost empty”.
$8,000,000 to build a wastewater treatment center in Oregon – for tourists!
$272,000,000 for improvements at FAA-designated “low-priority” airports.
$15,000 for a storytelling festival in Utah.
$1,100,000 to “beautify” Hollywood, CA’s Sunset Strip. Yes, the same one in tons of movies.
$30,000,000 to Defense Dept. contractors suspended for suspicion of fraud
$1,300,000,000 for Amtrak, which is currently losing $32 per passenger as people use “cars” and “airplanes” more.
$2,000,000 for a new fire station in Truckee, NV. Problem: they have no fire fighters.
$25,000 for Sykesville, MD. They don’t know why.
$935,000 for a dance troupe to weatherize homes in DC.
$255,000,000 for ARC – a government-backed small business loan organization that expects a 65% default rate.
$75,129 for Paragould, AR to purchase iPod Touches for children.
$49,818 and 53,940 lbs of carbon to send 11 people from Alaska to the Copenhagen Global Warming Conference going on right now.
$800,000 for an Ohio town to create a zone where trains can’t blow their whistles.
$90,000 to teach people to cooperate by watching birds.

The Best Albums Of The Decade

In the humble (but totally correct) opinion of yours truly, all of the greatest music from the year 2000 to the end of this year, 2009, in alphabetical order. I recommend all of these albums to anyone who enjoys any genre of music. There has to be at least one on here you'd like.

A.
Aborted - Strychnine.213
Agalloch - Ashes Against The Grain
Ahab - The Call Of The Wretched Sea
The Amenta - n0n
Amon Amarth - Twilight Of The Thunder God
Animosity- Animal
As Cities Burn - Come Now, Sleep
Augury - Fragmentary Evidence

B.
Behemoth - Demigod
Beneath The Massacre - Dystopia
Between The Buried & Me - Alaska
Between The Buried & Me - Colors
The Black Dahlia Murder - Nocturnal
Blotted Science - The Machinations Of Dementia
Blue Scholars - Bayani
Boris - Pink
Botch - We Are The Romans!
Burning Witch - Crippled Lucifer (Seven Psalms To Our Lord Of Light)
Busdriver - Temporary Forever

C.
Cannibal Corpse - KILL
Cattle Decapitation - The Harvest Floor
Celtic Frost - Monotheist
Cephalic Carnage - Xenosapian
The Chariot - Everything Is Alive, Everything Is Breathing, Nothing Is Dead, Nothing Is Bleeding
The Chariot - Wars And Rumors Of Wars
Chevelle - Wonder What's Next
Chevelle - Vena Sera
Children Of Bodom - Follow The Reaper
Converge - No Heroes
Converge - Axe To Fall
Creed - Weathered
Crimson Moonlight - Veil Of Remembrance
Crimson Moonlight - In Depths Of Dreams Unconscious
Cynic - Traced In Air

D.
Dӓlek - Abandoned Language
Dӓlek - Gutter Tactics
Darkthrone - Fuck Off And Die
Decapitated - Nihility
Demon Hunter - Summer Of Darkness
Devourment - Unleash The Carnivore
Doomriders - Darkness Come Alive
Down - III: Over The Under
Drottnar - Welterwerk
Dub Trio - Another Sound Is Dying
Dying Fetus - Destroy The Opposition
Dying Fetus - War Of Attrition
Dying Fetus - Descend Into Depravity

E.
Earth - Hex: Or, Printing In The Infernal Method
Earth - The Bees Made Honey In The Lion's Skull
Earthsuit - Kaleidoscope Superior
Ed Gein - Judas Goats & Diesel Eaters
Eminem - Encore
Encryptor - Sermon Decay
Exhale - Prototype
Explosions In The Sky - The Earth Is Not A Cold Dead Place
Explosions In The Sky - All Of A Sudden I Miss Everyone
Extol - Undeceived
Extol - The Blueprint Dives

F.
The Faceless - Planetary Duality

G.
Genghis Tron - Board Up The House
Goatsnake - Flower Of Disease
Godflesh - Hymns
Godspeed You! Black Emperor - Lift Your Skinny Fists Like Antennas To Heaven
Godspeed You! Black Emperor - Slow Riot For New Zero Kanada
Gojira - The Way Of All Flesh
Gorod - Leading Vision
Greymachine - Disconnected

H.
He Is Legend - Suck Out The Poison
He Is Legend - It Hates You
Heaven & Hell - The Devil You Know
The Horrors - Strange House

I.
Immortal - Sons Of Northern Darkness
In Flames - Come Clarity
Insect Warfare - World Extermination
ISIS - Oceanic
ISIS - Panopticon
ISIS - In The Absence Of Truth
ISIS - Wavering Radiant
Isole - Forevermore

J.
Jesu - Silver
Jesu - Conqueror
Jesu - Why Are We Not Perfect?
Jesu - Opiate Sun
Job For A Cowboy - DOOM
Job For A Cowboy - Ruination
Johnny Cash - American III: Solitary Man
Johnny Cash - American V: A Hundred Highways

K.
Kaki King - Dreaming Of Revenge
Karl Sanders - Saurian Meditations
Karl Sanders - Saurian Exorcisms
Kayo Dot - Choirs Of The Eye
Kayo Dot - Blue Lambency Downward
Krisiun - AssassiNation
Kronos - Colossal Titan Strife
Kronos - The Hellenic Terror

L.
Living Sacrifice - The Hammering Process
Living Sacrifice - Conceived In Fire
The Lonely Island - Incredibad

M.
Mastodon - Crack The Skye
Matisyahu - Youth
Matryoshka - Zatracenie
maudlin of the Well - Part The Second
Mayhem - Ordo Ad Chao
Maylene & The Sons Of Disaster - S/T
Maylene & The Sons Of Disaster - III
Megadeth - The System Has Failed
Megadeth - Endgame
Meshuggah - obZen
mewithoutYou - Catch For Us The Foxes
mewithoutYou - Brother, Sister
Misericordiam - Unanimity And The Cessation Of Hostility
Misery Signals - Mirrors
Misery Signals - Controller
Modest Mouse - We Were Dead Before The Ship Even Sank
Mogwai - Mr. Beast
Mouth Of The Architect - The Ties That Bind
mum - Finally, We Are No One
MGR - Nova Lux
MuteMath - S/T
MuteMath - Armistice

N.
Napalm Death - Smear Campaign
Napalm Death - Time Waits For No Slave
Nasum - Shift
Necrophagist - Epitaph
Neon Horse - S/T
Neon Horse - Haunted Horse: Songs Of Love, Defiance, & Delusion
NILE - Annihilation Of The Wicked
NILE - Those Whom The Gods Detest
Norma Jean - Bless The Martyr, Kiss The Child
Norma Jean - O' God, The Aftermath! (The Marvelous End Of The Exhausted Contender)

O.
Om - Pilgrimage
Om - God Is Good
Opeth - Damnation
Opeth - Ghost Reveries
Origin - Antithesis
Orphaned Land - Mabool

P.
P.O.D. - Satellite
Pelican - What We All Come To Need
port-royal - Dying In Time
Portal - Swarth
Psycroptic - Symbols Of Failure
Psycroptic - Ob(Servant)

R.
Red Sparowes - Every Red Heart Shines Toward The Red Sun
The Roots - Game Theory
Russian Circles - Geneva

S.
Saul Williams - The Inevitable Rise And Liberation Of NiggyTardust
Sephiroth - Draconian Poetry
Shadows Fall - The War Within
Silversun Pickups - Carnavas
The Sound Of Animals Fighting - The Ocean & The Sun
Spawn Of Possession - Noctambulant
Staple - S/T
Starflyer 59 - My Island
Stars Of The Lid - ...And Their Refinement Of The Decline
Steve Von Till - A Grave Is A Grim Horse
Suffocation - Blood Oath
Sufjan Stevens - Greetings From Michigan, The Great Lake State
Sufjan Stevens - Come On, Feel The Illinoise!
Sunn O))) & Boris - Altar
Sunn O))) - White1
Sunn O))) - Black1
Sunn O))) - Domkirke
Sunn O))) - Monoliths & Dimensions
Symphony X - Paradise Lost

T.
Terror - The Damned, The Shamed
Them Crooked Vulture - S/T
Thievery Corporation - Radio Retaliation
Thrice - The Alchemy Index Pt. II: Water
Tim Hecker - Harmony In Ultraviolet
Tim Hecker - An Imaginary Country
Town Called Machine - We Are Not Sick
TRENCHES - The Tide Shall Swallow Us Whole

V.
Vader - Impressions In Blood
Viraemia - S/T
Virgin Black - Elegant...And Dying
Virgin Black - Requiem - Mezzo Forte
Virgin Black - Requiem - Fortissimo
Vital Remains - Icons Of Evil
Volbeat - Rock The Rebel/Metal The Devil

W.
Weedeater - God Luck & Good Speed
Wolves In The Throne Room - Two Hunters
Wolves In The Throne Room - Malevolent Grain
Wretched - The Exodus Of Autonomy

Z.
ZAO - Self-Titled
ZAO - Parade Of Chaos
ZAO - The Funeral Of God
ZAO - The Fear Is What Keeps Us Here
ZAO - Awake?
Zu - Carboniferous

Blackened Vengeance*

And now that the time has arrived
We arm ourselves with unholy wrath
To take of what we have been deprived
And to decimate everything in our path

Armies of the light
Clothed in robes of pure white
Shall be drenched in blood tonight
Disciples of the lord
Your faith shall not be restored
You shall meet death by our sword

For so long we have waited upon the hour
To unleash our ever undivine retribution
The blackened cloud of our hate shall devour
The untainted masses of christian salvation

Armies of the light
Clothed in robes of pure white
Shall be drenched in blood tonight
Disciples of the lord
Your faith shall not be restored
You shall meet death by our sword

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*This is written for a specific genre. This does not reflect any emotional inhibition towards anyone of any faith.

Fuck it.

I miss you.

An Unmarked Grave

Oh my dear how you've changed
For I can no longer look upon your face
And be filled with the joy I once possessed
Now its gone
Replaced with rage
Replaced with hate
Screaming does me no amount of good
Nor does the blood I lose from my own injuries
But to see that you are destroyed
My wish of nights passed by
To come true at last for me

I want you dead, rotting in the soil
To put my mind in no further turmoil
I want your heart in pale hand, still beating
To be the last thing you see while breathing
I want you begging, screaming, please forgive me
To hope for mercy you will never see

The youthful bliss no longer persists
Only weariness aging marrow and bone
The sun that smiled at me each morning
Now is gone
Replaced with scorching heat
Replaced with feelings bittersweet
Omniscient reminder of my lack of inherit good
Despite the blood lost from my own injuries
Your memory has yet to be destroyed
The wish of ever-passing nights
To come true at last for me

I want you dead, rotting in the soil
To put my mind in no further turmoil
I want your heart in pale hand, still beating
To be the last thing that you see while breathing
I want you begging, screaming, please forgive me
To hope for mercy you will never see

Strapped to the chair, you cannot escape
Each window covered, drape by drape
I see the panic on your pale and empty face
Your shallow pathetic life is mine to erase

I want you dead, rotting in the soil
To put my mind in no further turmoil
I want your heart in pale hand, still beating
To be the last thing that you see while breathing
I want you begging, screaming, please forgive me
To hope for mercy you will never see

Sinator

You led us into the temple of deceit
Forced us to bow down at your feet
Painted glorified facade over fact
As the sanctuary pillars began to crack
Damage now irreparably done
But you still think you've won
Let the bastard son of our distress
Be crushed by the rage we possess

Methods placed to gain
Power possessed to obtain
Together sing the refrain
Sinator, sinator, sinator
Policies pushed to enslave
To send us all to our grave
Your patriotism is deprave
Sinator, sinator, sinator

From the rivers of your silicon Babylon
Flows filth swept under the rug for so long
And you raised your cup to toast success
As our hallowed kingdom began to regress
Lies cushion your empire's foundation
Providing no need for proper explanation
But now your refusal to take responsibility
Will be met with our uninhibited hostility

Methods placed to gain
Power possessed to obtain
Together sing the refrain
Sinator, sinator, sinator
Policies pushed to enslave
To send us all to our grave
Your patriotism is deprave
Sinator, sinator, sinator

Hidden behind walls
Hidden behind closed doors
You'd say anything at all
To get us on all fours

Running through the halls
Running from the open doors
You know every empire falls
The time has come for yours

Buy this shirt

My friend JJ (shivtheimpaler.blogspot.com) and his band Monotheist (myspace.com/monotheistmetal) have just finished printing their very own shirt! Its sick and awesome and metal in every way, just like the band. They are only $15 dollars, a great price for a great t-shirt, and you'll be supporting underground metal all at the same time. Buy one for the metalhead in your family, Christmas is coming up you guys! DO IT, you'll be making a worthy investment into the future of this band, and let me tell you it is well-deserved on their part.

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Kitteh

So, I decided recently (estimated time: 9 hours ago) that I want myself a kitteh. And after much time (estimated time: 10 minutes on Petfinder.com), I'm pretty sure I know who I want to be my kitteh. So everyone say hello to my future kitteh Alice:



Her Petfinder profile is as follows (BTW her current name is Lindsay):

"Lindsay is a great kitten in every way. She LOVES attention, gets along with other cats, loves to play, and can be nice and mellow or very active. Her beautiful coat is soft and sleek, and she thoroughly enjoys a good brushing. Becky and Emma are her sisters, and she would love to be with one of them, but would be great with any interactive cat or kitten. Lindsay is up-to-date with routine shots, house trained and spayed/neutered."

Now just to convince my parents to let me do this. You think if I'm paying for the kitten and anything related to its care it would be a solid yes but surprisingly no...

Now not even I can erase you from my memory...

...because I locked you in my mind and swallowed the key and sewed my lips shut tight and kept my hands folded in calm demeanor never expecting you to dig your way out my cerebellum and scrape through my limbic system until I could not stop the vertigo and retched you out my body but oh I recall the days when we were in each others thoughts and we fell asleep with me on your mind and I on yours but then you left in the night and now I fear I will never be home again, for I must have misplaced my key...

Coffins Marked With Your Name (Carved Before You Ever Became)

The horizon births another day
In the valley of dust and decay
The broken here bury their lives
Aspirations to never survive
Barriers of man and of ocean
Set progress in circular motion
And in paths tread years earlier
Lays weary the broken dreamer

Hungry as ever
The daylight shall swallow and sever
Us as meat thrown to the hounds
(And) night shall shed
A curse of fear and almighty dread
Until all our resistance drowns

In day all feel the sky's weight
Spent running from a sealed fate
Coffins marked with your name
Carved before you became
And a seed planted deep inside
Given to be your only guide
Says there is nothing to leave
But even less to believe/achieve

Hungry as ever
The daylight shall swallow and sever
Us as meat thrown to the hounds
(And) night shall shed
A curse of fear and almighty dread
Until all our resistance drowns

The end of this road meets
The other end of the road
No conclusion, no beginning
No climax, no triumph
No interlude, no solitude
And no escape
No escape

Coffins marked with your name
Carved before you became

Hungry as ever
The daylight shall swallow and sever
Us as meat thrown to the hounds
(And) night shall shed
A curse of fear and almighty dread
Until all our resistance drowns

Coffins marked with your name
Carved before you became

A Liar

(Based on true events)

There is a cokehead on the bus. Telling me he don't do no drugs no more cause he don't like them. Makes him all paranoid he says. He says he don't even drink except for last thanksgiving, and it had been a whole year. He's a liar. He asks me if my pupils are enlarged. Says I'm on crack or meth. Tells me he has some for sale. Until he looks at my eyes again and sees that I'm sober. He takes it back. Says it was a joke. No, drugs are bad he says. Makes him anxious. He used to, when he was younger. Now he just drinks on Thanksgiving. And maybe a little bud he says, but just a few hits. But only on Thanksgiving. He don't do them heavy drugs no more. He used to, when he was younger. He's a liar.

Now he just looks at lovely young women on the bus, like her, dreads colored like the lights on a Christmas tree, dressed in fashionable hand-stitched rags, and he begins to rhythmically poetically speak words of his fame. He gets the ladies. Does with them what he pleases. Fucks them in the ass and makes them feel it in their chest. People know his name, and they know his fame. He's a liar. He says he don't have to work for his fortune. Work is a word he doesn't speak. He gets what he wants for his smooth talking, his slick speaking, and his synchronized selection of syllables. This is his name and this is his fame. On the 115 to Mays Pond in the middle of the night. He points his crackfinger at me says "do you have problems? Because problems are no good. You should fix your problems. I fixed my problems. I have no problems." He's a liar. I think to myself if you have no problems than nobody does. "My stop is here. Good day to you sir."

2009 Christmas List

1. Vinyl for any of the following albums:

-ISIS - Wavering Radiant
-Sunn O))) - Monoliths & Dimensions
-Om - God Is Good
-Ahab - The Call Of The Wretched Sea
-Dӓlek - Gutter Tactics
-Jesu - Why Are We Not Perfect or Silver
-Godspeed You! Black Emperor - any
-Kayo Dot - Choirs Of The Eye
-Stars Of The Lid - any
-The Sound Of Animals Fighting - The Ocean & The Sun
-Steve Von Till - A Grave Is A Grim Horse
-Sunn O))) & Boris - Altar
-Tim Hecker - any
-Virgin Black - any
-SWANS - any
-Wolves In The Throne Room - any
-Ravi Shankar - any

2. Clothing (tee-shirts or hoodies) for any of the following bands
(size medium)

-ISIS
-Jesu
-Sunn O)))
-OM
-Godspeed You! Black Emperor
-Converge
-He Is Legend
-Greymachine
-Godflesh
-NILE
-ZAO

3. A black peacoat, medium or large. Any style will do for me really.

Get me something if you are my friend! I demand material possessions as proof of your friendship!

We Don't Get Much Snow Around Here, So We Make Frost Angels Instead

If you grow tired of breathing
So incredibly deep
You and your weary lungs can rest
In my lap as we look to the sky
And speak of what we know
What we don't know
What we wish we knew
And what we wish we'd never been told
Look now dear
The sun is almost done setting
Leaving a frost-bitten landscape
To rise on another lonely winter day
(Everything finds its conclusion you say, but I say nay)

Not In Rivers, But In Twilight

This post is about how I was suckered into seeing New Moon with a good friend of mine (who is most definitely female), and fell prey to such a great fit of cringing throughout its duration that I almost regretted buying tickets for both of us, and then I saw this poster in Bella's room:



...and suddenly it was all worth 2 1/2 hours of terrible acting and 14-year old screams for toned abdominal muscles.

*P.S. - the poster is the cover for ISIS' "Not In Rivers, But In Drops" Single release.

Landon Martin's Musical Endeavors

www.myspace.com/visioninxenon

this was formerly the music page for my one-man triphop/glitch/electronica project that fell flat on its face. it is now the home of Landon Martin's Musical Endeavors, where anything and everything that I create that isn't for CZAR (www.myspace.com/emeraldmusicproject) or The Ironknees (no website) will go. I will be collaborating with the likes of JJ "Shiv" Polachek and Meghan Seitz, as well as my good friend Nick Landreth. Anyone interested in collaborating musically should send me a line at the above web address. Also, you should add me if you have a myspizzle and listen to what I got. More is always on its way, I write almost constantly.

Thank you, and goodnight.

Today

was for all intents and purposes, the worst day of my life.

I hate everything.

Aura Embodying Goddess Black

In the darkness of my sleep
She came to end the nightmare
When I awoke I was swallowed
In a shroud of pale emptiness
I saw with the clearest vision
A frame enshrined in desolation
In silent blankness of thought
Staring into me like black holes

Oh how death knocked down my door
And her warmth brought such comfort
More than any friend could provide
The atmosphere of a dying breath

Oh how she came and rid my body
Of all the life I held so disgustingly dear
To show me the peace of solitude
The eternity of a nonexistent

Her words escape like slits of smoke
Evaporating on oxygen contact
Swarmed in black mass of static
Like a hive dead in the heart of winter
Her empty voice soothes my wounds
Walls melt everything separate forms one
Six hours unveiling the darkest of words
Six more condemning the darkest of worlds

Above a choking December's fog
The tops of the trees stand defiant
And outside my window carrion birds
Descend to feast on a frozen globe
(But) In aura embodying goddess black
I float away to lonely universes
To occupy the empty air and space
To lie asleep in the bosom of death

Bitter Servant

When sadness came
You were not there for me
When I called your name
You had nothing to say
Under blackened skies
I stood my ground alone
Tears ran from my eyes
But you never wiped them dry
When the rain fell
I found no shelter in you
When I was in hell
I was given no outstretched hand
On the coldest nights
You never called me in
Shivers ran down my spine
But you never embraced me

When darkness came
I was there for you
When you called my name
I heard everything you had to say
When your fears closed in
You never had to face them alone
Tears ran from your eyes
And I always wiped them dry
When everything fell
I became a shelter for you
When the storm would not quell
I held you in my arms
When you were alone at night
I came and embraced you
I turned on the light
I brought you in

I keep coming back
I keep coming back to your steps
Like a wretched dog
Like a bitter servant

I keep coming back
I keep coming back to your door
Like a wretched dog
Like a bitter servant

I keep coming back
I keep coming back to your feet
Like a wretched dog
Like a bitter servant

I keep coming back
I keep coming back to you
Like a fucking wretch
Like a bitter servant

Open Vein

Its raining so hard, dear
Teardrops from your eyes
Splatter onto my cheeks
You can't hold back now
(You can't hold back anymore)

Like in the summer when we
We traveled down the road
I saw you in the fall
On your own, by yourself
(Bloody footprints you left behind)

This scar upon my neck
So deep and dreadfully red
It takes the pain for you instead

This open vein it courses
My own dwindling life forces
I'd see my death so you could live

Everything changed colors
Everything fell away
But I saw in black and white
And it was mostly black
(Black as ice unbeknown)

Inside you burst open at every seam
Walls fall, foundations crack
And the oceans crash upon your head
But you're already dead, my love
(Already dead! And for so long)

This scar upon my neck
So deep and dreadfully red
It takes the pain for you instead

This open vein it courses
My own dwindling life forces
I'd see my death so you could live

I found composure in a bed of thorns
I feel right at home
But you won't sleep there
No, you won't sleep there with me
(You find no comfort in where you've been)

The nights drag on as I curse your memory
Aching begins when I think
How the needle sets you free
It sets you free indeed
(This is my greatest fear)

This scar upon my neck
So deep and dreadfully red
It takes the pain for you instead

This open vein it courses
My own dwindling life forces
I'd see my death so you could live

Why this blog

is called "Atypical Stereotype".

Well, its a song by an awesome band called Dӓlek. Avant-Hip Hop duo, MC Dӓlek and "The Oktopus". Off their most recent album "Gutter Tactics". Highly recommended. Lyrics below.

Truth stay intangible, they treat us like animals
Don't expect progress, the movement's all lateral
Upward climb result in heinous crime.
Talkin' Tulsa '21, May 31
Burnt Black Wall Street behind some pale sheets
Shit is weak
Historically, Events remain cyclical
Stories so typical the tears run dry
Sip the Iron Wine as poetic device
Quick to link thought like when tape get spliced
What I call a good time?
My hood and three dice
Ol' Gold got this kid real nice
I'm a atypical stereotype

Truth stay intangible, they treat us like animals

They got enamored with the glamour, lost sight of our plight
Doesn't take proper grammar to be able to write
Harsh truth always heard between the lines I recite
Change the world and I'll change my gripes
Change the world and I'll change my gripes
Sip the Iron wine at such great heights I ain't conscious
Speak for the paupers, griots, and the authors

Truth stay intangible, they treat us like animals

They got enamored with the glamour, lost sight of our plight
Doesn't take proper grammar to be able to write
Harsh truth always heard

Truth stay intangible, they treat us like animals
Change the world and I'll change my gripes.
Truth stay intangible, they treat us like animals

Sip the Iron wine at such great heights I ain't conscious
Speak for the paupers, griots, and the authors

Truth stay intangible, they treat us like animals
Sip the Iron wine at such great heights I ain't conscious
Speak for the paupers, griots, and the authors
Truth stay intangible, they treat us like animals

Sip the Iron wine at such great heights I ain't conscious
Speak for the paupers, griots, and the authors
Diseased try to lead? They lost us
Truth stay intangible, they treat us like animals

Hello everything/Song of the day(s)

I haven't posted in awhile. This is because I no longer have consistent internet, due to the fact that I no longer live at home. I am currently staying with my friend Alex (three cheers), who has no internet. Every once and again, however, I do come home to use the internetz. So just a heads up.

Also, song of the last several days is most definitely the entire new Converge album, "Axe To Fall". Its just awesome. Here's a few samples:









myspace.com/converge

Cheers.

Fuck you

M'kay? At least I keep my fucking promises.

Gigantic Brain's "Burn"

Today's (or yesterday's, or whatever) song of the day. Gigantic Brain is the world's only one-man sci-fi based ambient grind band, and they are the only one the world needs (trust me). However, the BRAIN has gotten "smarter" since their last release, "World", and has offered a much more interesting release with the brand new "I Swallow 16 Red Planets". This shit just fucking tears me apart. In it is more fusion of his very different genre aspirations than previously, and it works nicely for him. Distorted, other-worldly vocals over hideously robotic blast beats at the speed of HOLY SHIT with an indiscernible guitar chugging over the top will occasionally flow seamlessly (how'd he do that?) into a very calming ambient passage which might morph into an even post-rock/metal/grind(?) moment, and then right back to the beginning again. By the time you're done listening to the new album, it won't even surprise you anymore that the guy behind this music is a raging insomniac. Highly recommended, especially if you like sci-fi, take a lot of drugs, or have ADD. Which could explain why I like them so much. myspace.com/giganticbrain

Knucklebuster

So! As of 3:26 AM Pacific Standard Time, the first Knucklebuster demo track has been completed. I might upload at at some point, because I'm extremely proud of it. Its just kickass heavy metal, which is something I've always wanted to make. Anyway, more demo tracks to be written/recorded soon, as this thing slowly pieces itself together. But goodnight to you, world! And may metal fucking kick ass forever and ever.

Knucklebuster:

Nick Landreth - Guitar/Bass
Landon Martin - Drums/Guitar
Preston - Vocals

\m/

deadmau5's "Ghosts n' Stuff (ft. Rob Swire)"

the song of this day. Its simply put, the catchiest song I have ever heard. Best car song ever, its impossible not to dance to. deadmau5 has made quite a name for himself, going from nothing to being the most sought after producer/DJ/remix artist in the country in under a year. Props to him, he's good at it. Plus he wears awesome helmets live. Off the new album "For Lack Of A Better Name". Check it out: myspace.com/deadmau5.

It's been so long
I've been out of my body with you
I feel alone, feel at home
Feel like nothing is true

You take me to a place where my senses gave way
Turn it round, shut it down, what the people say
Climbing up, coming down, gonna give you some
Take my hand and let it come, let it come, let it...

Take it back when she knows that your doing it right
Because everybody else knows what their taking tonight

But I just wanna bring it round
We, we're gonna get there tonight

Its been so far I've been walking the line of my time
Wake me up to the stars we are coming home
I know we had a chase but we're out of time

We have sold in the cold, physical desires
Set me free, set me out on the run
Lift me up to the sun, to the sun, to the...

When your burning down, when your burning down
It's the way that you think that I know it's too late

But I just want to bring it round
We, were gonna get there tonight
I just want to take you down
We, were gonna bring you round

But I just want to bring it round
We, were gonna get there tonight

Endless (for SLM)

Tearing my hair out
Fingernails dig deep into my skin
I can't forget where I've been
Inside I remember
What has failed and what has fallen
What more of my sanity can be stolen?

I can see them coming
Rushing at me from all directions
Throwing at me their affections
But solid walls invisible
Keep all hands from pushing through
No love is strong enough to break into

I look around and begin to see
This was all because of me
Countless drops of blood set free
But still no fucking guarantee

Another fucking pill
To stall my life's inevitable end
Drop it all and just pretend
Just one more drink
To choke the pain until its numb
To hold back the tears of a zero sum

(Three) remain at my side
They hold out their arms to catch me
To save me from what I fear I'll soon be
Every day is a new hell
Anything to be taken from here
Somewhere I've yet to shed a tear

I look inside and begin to see
That I have lost sight of me
With all dark thoughts I agree
The definition of who I will be

Every song has faded
Ever movie has ended
Shall I die for each and every breath
Until life becomes constant death?

"Your Song" from Moulin Rouge

is not today's song of the day. Its actually yesterday's song of the day. I completely forgot to post it, but its not too early into today, so I think I'm good for it. Anyway, I am admitting to just loving this movie by making this the song of the day. Its just great, really. Not much else to be said. And hell, I'll say, Ewan McGregor has a goddamned beautiful voice. This song is particularly special to me because I usually sing it to a very special girl I know. But enough smoochy-smooch talk, everyone should see this movie. Period. Song is in the movie, and its better when accompanied by the visual thing too. Originally written and performed by Elton John.

My gift is my song
And this one's for you
And you can tell everybody
That this is your song
It maybe quite simple
But now that it's done
Hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind
That I put down in words
How wonderful life is now you're in the world

Sat on the roof
And I kicked off the moss
Well some of the verses well
They got me quite cross
But the sun's been kind
While I wrote this song
It's for people like you that
Keep it turned on

So excuse me for forgetting
But these things I do
You see I've forgotten
If they're green or they're blue
Anyway the thing is well I really mean
Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen

And you can tell everybody
This is your song
It may be quite simple
But now that it's done
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind that I put down in words

How wonderful life is now you're in the world
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is now you're in the world

Come Back

You keep walking down the road
Its dark and its wet and its cold
But you keep walking down the road
I can't stop you I can't stop you I can't stop you
And you keep walking down the road

I wish you'd come back
Where I know you'll stay dry
I wish you'd come back
Where its okay for you to cry
I wish you'd come back
Where we both know you're safe

I'm confused

And I don't know what to do.

I'm stuck. And no one is here to listen.

"We'll be there for you
I believed and I can tell you it's not true
Run away before they find you again
The consequence of the conscience
Is that you'll be left somewhere
Swinging in the air" - Dio

I'm Gonna Write You A Song

I'm gonna write you a song
Without speaking a sound
Cause my mind's long gone
And no good words abound

I'm gonna write you a song
With no words to sing
My pen isn't that strong
Can't quite convey what I'm feeling

I'm gonna write you a song
With my mouth shut tight
My thoughts don't belong
It just doesn't feel right

I'm gonna write you a song
And let the music guide
So my feelings move on
With nowhere to hide

I'm gonna write you a song
Fuck Mr. Frost and fuck Mr. Poe
Sometimes words get it wrong
Because words don't always know

I'm gonna write you a song
A song that says I love you
You can listen to it lifelong
Because it'll never be untrue

Holy shit

I have had the weirdest day.

Holy.
Shit.

Well, at this time, I'm currently enjoying Nirvana's Nevermind album, and searching for downloadable movie clips to place at the end of a song Nick made at my house the other day. Anyone got any sites they know of? I'm not having much luck. Also, Salina's extremely drunk. Which is my entertainment for the evening. God I love that girl.

Sleep soon, church in the morning (not for much longer! aHA!).

Later people.

I just discovered

that Kayo Dot's "Choirs Of The Eye" is a phenomenal album. Its beautiful and crushing. Also the horns are to die for. Go check it out!



myspace.com/kayodot

Wish I Could

Winter's coming
Leaves are falling
I don't know
Where I'm going

Air is colder
Days are dying
I can't see
I can't see you

Wish I could read your mind
Wish I could read your mind
Wish I could read your mind
Wish I could, wish I could

Summer's gone
Sun is setting
Don't remember
What I was doing

Breathing's harder
Must be dying
I can't speak
I can't speak for you

Wish I could read your mind
Wish I could read your mind
Wish I could read your mind
Wish I could, wish I could

I'd take off my hat
I'd take off these shoes
I'd put it down
Just for you

I'd change my mind again
I'd change the words once more
I'd write them down
Just for you

Wish I could read your mind
Wish I could read your mind
Wish I could read your mind
Wish I could, wish I could

Skin's "Blood On Your Hands"

Is the song of the day for this day, September 26th, 2009. Skin was a band that consisted of the two staple members of renowned noise-rock pioneers SWANS (myspace.com/blackswansblackswans), Michael Gira and Jarboe. SWANS were known for basically being a brutally cacophonic wail of utter despair, and Skin is more or less a lighter version, one that is about 1/3rd the density, and twice as melodic, without losing the wail of despair factor. They released two albums, both long out of print, and then changed their name to World Of Skin, and releasing a compilation album of the two albums together in 1988, intertwining songs sung by Michael Gira and songs sung by Jarboe. Its excellent and not overly complicated, and not too simple either. Great music for those eager to fall into a pit of absolute desolation. This song in particular is sung by Jarboe, and played by Michael Gira. Its one of their more melodic pieces, and a fine one at that. Off the compilation album, "The World Of Skin". Give it a listen via the video below.

There's blood on your hands, baby
Baby, there's blood on your hands

Mama's gonna get even with you
Mama's gonna get you back
When all the blood's washed over you
Mama will never forget

Mama loves you too much, baby
Mama loves you too much to cry

Mama loves her darling boy
She'll hold you close in her arms
Mama's gonna wash his sweet body
Mama loves you too much to cry

Mama loves you too much, baby
Mama loves you too much to cry

I Gots

The sniffles. Fuck me. I can't breathe through my nose. And I have nothing to do today because I have no friends. Well, some friends. But they all seem to be busy. Fuck me! Blahhhh.

Well, I don't have much else to say, so in the mean time, here's a hilarious video from YouTube:

Also, Good News

I am now an official employee of Lowe's Home Improvement.



Psyched, as much as one can be for working at a hardware store.

I'm making $9.44/hr as a part time cashier, which is fucking awesome to say the least. And to think I almost didn't wear my suit jacket to the interview, things would have happened very differently. Apparently the manager likes people who dress up for the occasion. Also, a shoutout to Phil Martin, who sealed the deal for me, since he put in a good word. Thanks Phil, who will never see this.

I start at some point in October, just in time for the holidays! AKA the busiest time of the year! I hope to the God I think doesn't care about us that I make it through it all of that bullshit.

ANYWAY, so good news. Which is a first for awhile. Things are finally starting to look up. HELLO WORLD! You've met your match, and his name is Landon Martin. Hear me roar!

Roooooooooooooaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

MuteMath's "Clipping"

Song of the day tuhhday. MuteMath is just awesome, and if this is the future of popular music, count me in. This song mashes raw emotional overload with beautiful melodies. Great listen, coupled with the fact that is group kicks hard ass live, something I should be able to attest to after I see them in October. Song comes off their brand new album, "Armistice". Check it out here:
myspace.com/mutemath.

Feeling overload
Carrying bottled skies around
I've been drowning all along
Wearing out in a faltered sea
And I give up

Common sense failed again
Meddling in a foreign scene
Foreign dream
Time won't spare another sun
Daring me with another choice another choice

I don't know who to fight anymore
I don't know what is right anymore

I don't know how to feel anymore
I don't know what is real anymore

I don't know who to trust anymore
I don't know what I want anymore

I don't know who to blame anymore
I don't know what to say anymore

I don't know what I want anymore
I just don't know anymore

A couple of things

1.) Interview number 2 with Lowe's Home Improvement tomorrow morning. Super nervous and/or stoked, as long as its worth all this getting up and dressed in the end. I need me some moneys and shit!

2.) The season premiere of Crime Scene Investigation is on tonight in approximately 10 minutes. Also super nervous and/or stoked. Hopefully its a good one.

Shortly after that I shall retire for the night, so all you kiddies out there have to wait for more bloggin' til later, ya hear?

k peace bye.

My Dream

Is to be him: